I
will not wait
to be understood
I
will not wait
to be heard
I
will not wait
to be seen in the true light
for I am right here
I have not been lying
I have not been deceitful
being evaluated
by those physically near me
but personally distant
they try
to tell me what I am
where I belong
they use
words of disdain and anger
in loud tones
expressing only
the opposite of what they
have vocally spoken
so I
begin to tell myself repeatedly
to stay calm
silently waiting
for another loud structure
to return desolate
and in
learning
I empathize
quickly
yet
desperately
attempting to understand
the outside of a shell
a shell that
surrounds me
yet
I cannot recall its creation
I cannot recall the way to disengage it
as if it were restlessly and relentlessly
protecting its contents
that someone
somewhere
claimed valuable
empathize
then
through other eyes
I see myself
unwillingly
taking blame
for
misunderstood events
I have to remind myself
what is and isn't my own fault
spending hours upon hours
recalling
reality
and
in
a matter of minutes
repercussions arrive
in overwhelming tones
again
I don't understand why this happens
I think I know why
but it seems almost too simple to really be the answer
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