a

bit

influenced

but

the things

that have

happened

they happened

because

of my

past

&

I

am

at

a

crossroads

now

of

past

&

future

where

things

aren't

quite clear

so

I

am

just

pushing

pushing

for

the

moments

of

beauty

pushing

for

what

I

have

found

pushing

for

what

really

can

be

&

that

is

fuck

ing

beautiful

in

a

way

that

exploits

my

mistaken

thought

&

exploits

why

I

am

alive

try

to

hate

me

for

that

&

I

will

show

you

what

is

really

up

bitches