speaking to me

through the sounds

sounds recorded

way back when

listening to

nothing sounds

realizing he was

right

about pronunciation

it doesn't mean much

now

he

just as I

quit those

marketed

children of culture

a culture

turned grey

grey as the faces

they claim

claimed

by

hands held

tight

hands

of the

inside

a fire was

created

evidence

strewn about

in the

cold night

records

of a

grey face

retrieved

by

past

&

future

bright

blinding lights

shooting through

illuminating

the

various stories

stories

now described

by

some

collector of crystals

found with

water

one

single

thing

THERE HAVE BEEN SO MANY "YOU"

it doesn't matter who's watching

it doesn't matter who knows

it doesn't matter who cares

the subtle singularity formed in the shower

during a term of conditioning

my next cat will be named "Sandy"

so I can call it a sandy pussy.

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*hello, this is allchoppy, just saying, "yeh"... that's backwards for hey.*

hey Ian M

you wouldn't believe

this

but

most these days

are spent

out of step

now

for me too

do you remember when?

yeah

so do I

call those the

good ol' days

what

a

fucking

lie

covered my eyes

and

holy shit

exposed me

as

I would you

sat backwards

on

turned tables

not forever

but

until the next

the mystery of things we cannot explain

the scientists tirelessly working to solve

the investors spending to save precious time

the human anxiety of running out of time

the fear of a beautifully preserved secret

sometimes I just want to tell them all

because they so eagerly wait

I want to say

"oh well"

not the "oh" that would abandon hope

nor the "well" that would state completion

it's

just

really

PROCESS

not structure

learn/grow/experience/live/love/try

give & take

speak & listen

the past is a thought

just as equally

as what is to come

when I see him next

new process, begin

process of a process

wrinkled shorts

faded shoes

warped belt

messed hair

perfected shirt

they should know this by now

happiness

sleepless

relentless

the money and the yelling mornings

nothing

never thought it something

ask me about what I do take seriously

ask me about ears or eyes

ask me about puzzles

tell me that you can keep up

if

you can keep up

then

there is music for your ears

it's a

choppy

50

search

50

!

a problem is

that

I don't trust

the problem is

that

I desire to (one day be able to) trust

he's going to hate me

exposing the sunburns

the soccer field apart from everything else

the chart of history

exposing the existence

sunburns volume two

maybe with or in

shiny cars

oceanside towns

dusty classrooms

the restrictions of law

my changed

animated

judgements

aligned

& watch the leaves change in these brick buildings with tiny rooms and long hallways.

everyone thinks it's about them

it's not

they're just selfish

allchoppy

I believe that

people easily

get the wrong idea

of

who I am

&

what I am doing

I can only hope that

this does not mean

I easily

get the wrong ideas

but

to be honest

the person

a lot of people thought

they met

isn't as horrible

of a person

that

I

REALLY

AM

So, um, get to know me a little better and maybe you'll understand exactly what happened in the past

six months

maybe you'll understand exactly what happened in the past

two months alone

maybe you'll see exactly what is happening right now

but something tells me the (...) see

this isn't the place to say what I need to.

doing the things you fear the most

that unique anxiety

the cold hands that burn with sweat

the heart pumping deeper into your chest

nothing else feels quite that beautiful

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